I am blessed to have lived and experienced through my 20s!

I am blessed to have lived and experienced through my 20s! If I die tomorrow, I can say, “The decade was amazing!” I lived it to the fullest! I cried often. I laughed so much. I loved it like there was no tomorrow! I experienced pain and sorrow. I fell in love in various forms, ways and people. I found love: my soulmate and bestfriend! I experienced the joy and self love from giving back not only in the local communities but also globally. I ate delicious food from various countries and I got sick too! Hahah! I walked on land that most people have not been to. I learned to swim in many different oceans, seas, lakes and rivers! I accomplished many goals that I told myself to do back in my freshmen year. I fell down hard couples of times, yet I got back up again. I saw the world from 3 different angles. I found peace in yoga. I met incredible people who inspired me and are still in my life.  They taught me what I supposed to learn at that moment and believed in me. I challenged myself, explored and discovered my identity and roots! Basically, I have grown so much these years; mentally, emotionally and spiritually! Cheers to the 30s! Hugs in love and Namaste to everyone on earth! :)

Aftermath of Death: The Day Of...Comes Grief.

Dear mom, I miss you already. Even though I am sad, I know you are at PEACE and in a better place now. No more suffering and/or pain. I know you believe in reincarnation. In your new life, may your spirit be rebirth with excellent health, long life, joy, love, happiness, and no suffering. You will always be missed and loved. I know your spirit will always be with us. Matter of fact, I did yoga outside this morning, and I felt your presence there with me…I love you, mom. Your eldest daughter Rest In Peace Mom.

Acceptance of Death

Isn’t funny how life works sometimes? It throws some joyful moments into the journey along with sadness and suffering at the same time. All one can do, is just be and experience it. Take it one day at a time, as I have been told to do. I guess even KG the dog, knows that mom doesn’t have that much time with us. He has been acting strangely and seems sad too. In the middle of everything, I found out that everyone deals with the situation differently. At this moment, yoga has seemed to be my way of coping... Everything in life has its beginnings and it ends. All we can do is to embrace it all that is offered… I know in our western culture, we are socially constructed to not talk about death. But just like birth, it is part of life. It is a constant battle for me too. Sometimes, I feel that there is nothing wrong to celebrate death as we do with birth. Other times because it brings so much pain to my heart just to think about it. As hard as it is to accept it, it is part of life, as I would tell myself. I don’t know how I am going to react or what will happen to me in the aftermath. All I know is that the loves, supports, and prayers from friends and family have helped. Your prayers, kind words, hangouts, and simple phone calls and/or text have got me through this far. I know most of you have not been through this yet and don’t know what to say. To be honest, you don’t really have to say much. Just being there and sharing your life experience with me, is a lot. Thank you for your continuous thoughts, positive energy, loves, and supports, and allow me to share my experience thus far with you, on this roaster coaster that I am dealing with, at this moment of my life. Thank you.